Tarot in the midst of heavy days

These have been heavy days—following the ongoing Senate Judiciary Committee hearings, the testimony of Dr. Christine Blasey Ford regarding Brett Kavanaugh. The weight and intensity of the world has left me feeling worn down with weariness of standing in tides of patriarchy that feel inevitable.
 
Reading tarot is one way that I come to perspectives that I maybe would not have come to on my own, looking to mystery and nonlinear forms of meaning-making for lines of flight beyond the repetitive thought processes that just keep bringing me back around and around the same rage and frustration. Today I read for myself, but inspired by adrienne maree brown’s #movementtarot, I also read for all of us.
I hope this opens up some room to breathe, imagine, and dream new possibilities:
 
As Pluto prepares to station direct tomorrow, these were my questions:
-What can we transform?
-What are the structures and foundations we can resurrect from our dead?
-What is the source of our hidden power?
 
Knower of Rivers:
Transformation is already happening. Life is change. Center the transformation of the world around you—the changing seasons, the flow of the rivers and the tides of the seas—in your joy. Yield your static understandings of yourself. You must be willing to enter into the waters of your own inner darkness, the formless possibilities of all that you might become, in order to discover that your own power is in your capacity to face your own shadows and surrender to change. Hold tightly to the expansive possibilities of your own imagination, dive deep into the dark waters, and let go of who you believed you had to be.
 
10 of Stones:
Gather the resources that you’ve been given, the sacred traditions of your ancestors and the earth, and build a site to which you can arrive as one thing and depart as another. You are not facing this darkness alone. You are standing with all the Dreamers who live within the earth and who brought us to this place, who taught us to survive, who taught us how to fly. Go back to the earth, go back to the ancestors and the wisdom traditions they have passed to us, gather with them and ask how they transformed all that was possible into the concrete forms we receive.
 
The Hanged Woman:
Your power is in surrender, in sacrifice, in the duration of discipline, the steadiness and ease of sadhana. What are the practices that ground and center you in all things, that connect you to the rhythms and cycles of a world that is so much bigger than you? What are the practices in which you experience your union with the world around you? Your power is not in your independence or autonomy; the source of your power is in your devotion to practices that dissolve the artificial boundaries between self and other.
 
[cards from The Shining Tribe Tarot by Rachel Pollack, accompanied by an essence from Dori Midnight]